Excruciating Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks typically start with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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